annoyed

i noe its all out of the blue, but i just wanna type about how i'm feeling right now, i'll bite anyone's head off if they even think about commenting anything negative or start any name calling.

i was in the middle of speaking with a fren, on the phone, when someone we all noe too well call and started asking if i was busy or anything. i mean i wouldnt say i was busy, but i dun wanna get interrupted unless its something important. asked me about wat kinda firewalls mac uses. *blinks* htf would i noe? do i look like i use a mac? u've said it once before, if you'd given me one, would i noe how to use it? geez. ok fine, that wasnt the key point. next she's asking me wat i'm doing. well told her i was talking to a fren on the phone. i swear, at this point of time, i did not owe her any other details, its not her problem to ask so much. BUT SHE DID. "who la? your fren no name?" i'm like WTF. I KNEW SHE WOULD ASK THAT. fuck. wat is wrong with her? I DO NOT OWE OR HAVE OBLIGATION TO ANSWER THAT QUESTION. back then yes, because i am obliged, owe, etc, u are supposed to noe, so i would understand if u were to ask. now? i mean htf would u feel if i were to asked and pestered u on who the fuck your talking with now? back then u had trouble answering such questions, your frens always lacked names, wat makes me think u'll do the same thing NOW? if u noe how u always answered me, pls expect the same thing from me, dun expect anything less or more, coz i'll end up like this. now look wat u made me do. u made me power trip, and go all moody. spoilt the conversation i had with my fren even.
and when i called you back, u said sorry and gimme this analogy "i'm a sales person, and watever i'm selling doesnt appeal to the you" bad analogy. lemme explain to you wat exactly i want. put yourself in your prev shoes. if u never liked me asking u those questions, then dun do the same thing to me. thats all, dun expect anything less or more as i've mentioned. fine, ur just glad, and happy, etc. BUT THATS THE WRONG WAY OF EXPRESSING IT. teasing? thats not funny, coz its become a pet peeve. continue to do things that u never even bothered to do back then, and i swear i will power trip again, and worst off even than now.

if that didnt make sense lemme go try some analogies of my own.
think of office network administration.
win2k, user rights and privileges.
you were from dept A, and had access to a lot of company resources, then maybe one day, u got downgraded or something, and got moved into another dept B, in which the network admin has to remove some rights and privileges. of coz when u try to access the resources in which u ONCE allowed to, u wont be able to now, correct? infact, maybe upon trying too many times might just get your own account locked out of the network.

i cant let go and move on? sorry isnt enuf? maybe if u didnt make so many mistakes, once in a while sorries would have been acceptable. BUT THIS IS RIDICULOUS. u make it sound like ANYTHING'S excusable as long as you apologise. my god. PPL SUFFER DAMMIT WHETHER OR NOT ITS YOUR FAULT OR NOT. i swear, one day, if u were to accidentally be the death of me, u'll just apologise non-stop and hope thats sufficient. and when ppl flame u, u get defensive and give that stupid 'sales person' analogy above, and expect ppl to take it or leave it.

geebus, flame me all u want, coz i'm gonna quote, "THIS IS MY BLOG AND I CAN WRITE ANYTHING I WANT TO".

fuck.

anyway had a fun time at Zhen's bday, mutual frens of clinton's, sherm's and mine. she even made an effort to cook non-pork stuff for me, so sweet, haha.

there was this mixed girl that i found attractive called indrani, whom i met at the walas walas bar the many many weeks ago, with clinton. well, she looked diff somehow. diff from the first time i met her, and from her frenster photos. i mean she still does look cute =D
indian+burmese. but as usual, i kinda chickened out, coz i'm supposed to make my move or something right? lol anti-climax. i hope no one noticed that i didnt do anything proactive =x. ah well. but i still think she's cute and attractive =D and damn, i didnt even take a photo with her, man i have to work on my skills...

well there were a LOT of drinks. infact i think i was the onli mofo that drank so much. thank god i had dinner first, i'd prolly puke again if i didnt.
and contrary to how clinton set me up to strip at the party for the girls, i didnt fall for it haha. but since i was high, i guess i had to satisfy everyone, since they were nicknaming me the stripper the whole nite -_-'
so i gyrated and shook my ass a bit. with my clothes on mind u =D
that seemed to satisfy everyone, lol.

sleep was good when i got back heh heh.
infact, slept so tight and well, that i woke up too early, since i was working 11.30am. speaking of which, phone system at starhub was down man. major downtime and all. haha. 400++ calls abandoned. man. management is gonna have the heads of those in charge of maintaining the phone system.

well work again tmr. 8.30am shift. i was gonna save money but after wat just happened, i feel like going to esso to go get me a pack of ciggies. fuck.
its not that i dun want u to be my fren and all, or that i dun wanna talk to u or anything. but can we just avoid things that may power trip me? pls? dun remind me of anything negative, and that'll be fine. dun ask so much, coz when u left me, such privileges are gone. i understand that, so u better start to as well.