Sunday, August 29, 2004

how uneventful...

hmmm, i've not been updating. i've been pondering why for the past couple of days. until i realised that it had been a rather uneventful couple of days. u can almost hear the sound of silence. maybe the wind and throw in some tumbleweed, lol.

*tries to recall wat happened on friday*
hmmm, another boring day at work i guess. the onli eventful thing that prolly happened was wheni made a newbie mistake at work.

instead of handsets, we use headsets to answer calls. and the headsets are in turn attached to an amplifier, in turn, attached to the phoneset. so my first call of the day. usually one would be able to hear his or her own voice when talking to customer. but i couldnt. which means the other fella cant hear a thing as well. of coz he hung up. lol. poor dude. i suspected something might be wrong with my headset, coz of the way i keep it and all =x. but didnt want to think the worst coz i just had my prev one replaced. ok next, the amplifier. it runs on batteries, so i hope that was the thing. so i grabbed the batteries, go to the office administrator to get new ones. jacked them in, tried calling a collegue to see if she could hear, but no, still no. *presses panic button* ok must be the headset. and i was about to go change, when the same collegue noticed that my amplifier was set to mute mic. *blood rushes to face* OMFG OF COZ!

geez man, we had a gd laugh, infact we couldnt concentrate much soon after. felt so ashamed. how can a person who's been working for more then half a year pull of a newbie stunt. man. reminds me of the sorry customers who forgot to turn on their cable modem, and call in and demand an explaination for the inability to go online, onli to find out later that the modem's turned off. argh. a paperbag with 2 holes wont be able to save me. i'd be burning with too much shame that it'll set it on fire and expose my face. argh

today?
uneventful other then just another stupid day at work with surprisingly quite a number of 'disputes'. been a while since i handled one, and it was startin to annoy me i tell u. added to the fact i went thru another surprise mood swing and felt lonely and lovesick once again. and once again i thought i was over it all. *sigh*
and i think i'm turning mellow or something. havent been appreciating much of my usual heavy metal shit. infact its annoying and conflicting with the way i am and how i feel these days. seem to be into love songs and metal ballards. bleh. when i think of how i'm gonna treat a future gf, i suddenly feel like i wont be able to commit anymore. back then i could have sworn i'd make the best bf any girl could have. now? i dunno. heh. after the mentally scarring drama i've been thru, i'm finding it hard to be the knight in shining armour anymore. infact the onli gd thing that came out of it was getting back together with my old chums.

"will she deserve my attention, love, care and concern?"
"will she hurt me like how i've been hurt before?"
lol. i guess if i ever do become anyone's bf, my efficiency definately would drop man. 50% give or take.

always wanted the opposite sex to noe how loving and caring i could be, but suddenly that's not enuf, and i feel redundant and obselete. or am i stuck in with sick fetish for sweet teenage perfect love thingy? then wtf is love supposed to be? a fren said love is just an word ppl invented which means nothing but trouble. like how one would end up with girls, or how parental love might be too much for us to bare. but, how bout love for siblings.

haha, seems that nowadays there's no need for knights to go save damsels in distress from dragons. either they're beating the damn dragon themselves, or making out with them. reminds me of how obselete the samurais became and all... *sigh*

*steps on brakes*
ok better not rattle on, lol, not healthy.

well i wonder wat tmr brings.

T.T still waitin for that money to come in... man, after returning ppl money and paying overdue hp bills, that should be enuf to take a healthy chunk of my incoming pay. htf am i gonna even date to begin with? argh. and damn bday's coming, and no significant half to help with the planning. man.

suggestions ppl? i wanna go book some bunglow chalet thingy, costa sands or something. bleh.
wonder how much it'll cost... *shudders*

and cant seem to get that endless rain song outta my head...*starts crooning again and play air guitar during the guit solo*
heh

somewhere....out there.....beneath the pale blue sky......

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