i dunno where to start...(edited)

i've yet to figure out who's this "who's who man?" from my tag-board, someone who claims i've forgotten and whom onli me and theepan knows. (earlier i suspected someone, but that someone has called to clarify, infact telling me that she's got a similar mysterious websms saying she's just been framed. but everything's in order, apologises made). but i do not see the purpose of her telling me this. either she's being genuinely helpful, or she's being evil and hope that me and jacq will quarrel somemore. infact i received an anonymous websms from someone showing the url of jacq's blog. i would suspect that the person is one and the same.

anyway if her intentions are good, well thats good. but if her intentions her evil, well i'm not falling for that bait. why? coz i'm done with quarreling with jacq, its not healthy for both of us, physically, mentally, etc.

well now onto the prev few day's summary

tuesday
well as mentioned in prev post, went out to watch bourne supremacy in the evening. before that went to play xbox with my, now, ex-collegue shikin. she just went back to her prev job at singtel. anyway had a fun time playing that D&D: Hereos game.

bourne supremacy was AMAZING. been a while since i saw such a nice movie. though it was sad when the gf got sniped. so sad. broke my heart, nearly cried. not coz of the movie, just that, the loss of a loved one kinda just made me imagine how i'd feel if i was in jason bourne's shoes. of coz instead of getting back, i'd prolly massacare the whole CIA.

anyway got home, slept at 3am

to be continued... coz gonna play soccer lol.
bbl
6:56pm
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OKAY back. made some edit up above.
anyway, soccer was great. one of them better players were commenting that i'm seem to be getting faster and faster every thurs. yay! i guess soccer's improving something, hehe. though i have to admit it may because of the new street soccer shoes. infact they performed well! maybe i was too rough with it, coz some of the sides are like scratching off, and this is the 2nd time i've played using them, lol. the edges seem to like, peel off too =x

now backtrack a bit to, wednesday.
because i slept at 3am the nite before, and woke up prematurely at 6.30am, i didnt get enuf sleep. i was SO cranky at work. so irritable and all. like say anything wrong to me and i'll bite your head off. my collegue, kathleen, was telling me that thank goodness i wasnt a girl. coz if today i pms, i think i'll bite everyone's head off. lol. or take a ak47 and mow everyone down or something. after work, went to play xbox alone, since no one else was free. so sad. so alone. fuck man.

today was slightly better i guess, woke up late, surprised to see kenshin shown on axn instead of ranma1/2. i'll miss ranma man... anyway the new series is starting, means i might be able to catch aoshi in good quality! coz i have the whole vid collection, but its bad rips of the kenshin tv/dvd series, those div avi files kind, some cant even be opened now, grrr...
then went to meet with my financial agent and all, went to hand in my application form for the upcoming make-over contest pacnet's holding soon. *rubs hands* if they pick me to be in the finals, even if i dun win first prize, i'll have the consolation prizes, which is rather gd, and surely would have garnered enuf publicity once again. hehehehehe

well all's fine i guess, gonna go sleep soon... another day at work tmr... maybe i'll go xbox again, or go find someone to go smoke sheesha(the arabic/middle eastern smoking device thingy with fruity flavours). time will tell.

unintended urgent leave

lol. i'm supposed to be working today. but apparently drank too much Black Cat last nite hehehehehe... pay's finally in and all. yay! work up this morning puking. puked so hard my throat hurt like fuck. body reject, lol. but no hangovers. bleh. called in sick, much needed rest man...

this evening go watch bourne supremacy! and even maybe go play xbox before then! yay! *jumps around in joy* i might be single and lonely. but at least i have time and money to enjoy myself finally!

though i'm starting to have my doubts on jacq and her 'just dating' guy. the way she keeps telling me its not a serious relationship and all...the defensiveness is just so suspicious.. but ah well, today i'm gonna enjoy myself! the much needed break... woohoo!!!!!!

*hops around in i r baboon victory dance*
XBOX HERE I COME!

how uneventful...

hmmm, i've not been updating. i've been pondering why for the past couple of days. until i realised that it had been a rather uneventful couple of days. u can almost hear the sound of silence. maybe the wind and throw in some tumbleweed, lol.

*tries to recall wat happened on friday*
hmmm, another boring day at work i guess. the onli eventful thing that prolly happened was wheni made a newbie mistake at work.

instead of handsets, we use headsets to answer calls. and the headsets are in turn attached to an amplifier, in turn, attached to the phoneset. so my first call of the day. usually one would be able to hear his or her own voice when talking to customer. but i couldnt. which means the other fella cant hear a thing as well. of coz he hung up. lol. poor dude. i suspected something might be wrong with my headset, coz of the way i keep it and all =x. but didnt want to think the worst coz i just had my prev one replaced. ok next, the amplifier. it runs on batteries, so i hope that was the thing. so i grabbed the batteries, go to the office administrator to get new ones. jacked them in, tried calling a collegue to see if she could hear, but no, still no. *presses panic button* ok must be the headset. and i was about to go change, when the same collegue noticed that my amplifier was set to mute mic. *blood rushes to face* OMFG OF COZ!

geez man, we had a gd laugh, infact we couldnt concentrate much soon after. felt so ashamed. how can a person who's been working for more then half a year pull of a newbie stunt. man. reminds me of the sorry customers who forgot to turn on their cable modem, and call in and demand an explaination for the inability to go online, onli to find out later that the modem's turned off. argh. a paperbag with 2 holes wont be able to save me. i'd be burning with too much shame that it'll set it on fire and expose my face. argh

today?
uneventful other then just another stupid day at work with surprisingly quite a number of 'disputes'. been a while since i handled one, and it was startin to annoy me i tell u. added to the fact i went thru another surprise mood swing and felt lonely and lovesick once again. and once again i thought i was over it all. *sigh*
and i think i'm turning mellow or something. havent been appreciating much of my usual heavy metal shit. infact its annoying and conflicting with the way i am and how i feel these days. seem to be into love songs and metal ballards. bleh. when i think of how i'm gonna treat a future gf, i suddenly feel like i wont be able to commit anymore. back then i could have sworn i'd make the best bf any girl could have. now? i dunno. heh. after the mentally scarring drama i've been thru, i'm finding it hard to be the knight in shining armour anymore. infact the onli gd thing that came out of it was getting back together with my old chums.

"will she deserve my attention, love, care and concern?"
"will she hurt me like how i've been hurt before?"
lol. i guess if i ever do become anyone's bf, my efficiency definately would drop man. 50% give or take.

always wanted the opposite sex to noe how loving and caring i could be, but suddenly that's not enuf, and i feel redundant and obselete. or am i stuck in with sick fetish for sweet teenage perfect love thingy? then wtf is love supposed to be? a fren said love is just an word ppl invented which means nothing but trouble. like how one would end up with girls, or how parental love might be too much for us to bare. but, how bout love for siblings.

haha, seems that nowadays there's no need for knights to go save damsels in distress from dragons. either they're beating the damn dragon themselves, or making out with them. reminds me of how obselete the samurais became and all... *sigh*

*steps on brakes*
ok better not rattle on, lol, not healthy.

well i wonder wat tmr brings.

T.T still waitin for that money to come in... man, after returning ppl money and paying overdue hp bills, that should be enuf to take a healthy chunk of my incoming pay. htf am i gonna even date to begin with? argh. and damn bday's coming, and no significant half to help with the planning. man.

suggestions ppl? i wanna go book some bunglow chalet thingy, costa sands or something. bleh.
wonder how much it'll cost... *shudders*

and cant seem to get that endless rain song outta my head...*starts crooning again and play air guitar during the guit solo*
heh

somewhere....out there.....beneath the pale blue sky......