"it's like losing a friend" to manda

well, i now for sure that i'm either being avoided or written off for gd.
i guess i was right concerning the vibes i was feeling, that manda was avoiding me the whole week before she went back. then the lack of interacting or talking to me during that day itself. and then her frens not replying to my smses. haven seen her on msn, so either she's actually busy, or i've been blocked. she moved her blog and didn't tell me about it. and she deleted me on frenster. not just removed me from my list, but the photo we took together from her profile as well. like wow. this is just about as much as i can take.

this would be the first. i've been combo-ed, and knowing her patterns(coz she tells me the things she does to avoid guys and stuff) she has dropped that same pattern on me. what i'm wondering is, why?

was it coz of what i wrote few entries ago? well, it's probably just infatuation, coz it's passing already. but i still do care for u as a fren, as i always had for all these years i've known u. and we've known each other for so long, why this now? is there something you're not telling me? you know how direct i am and stuffs, i don't think we have to resort to cloak and dagger just to get points across. just tell me. and be done with it. don't leave it hanging.

whatever it is, i want u to know that i've always treasured our friendship and closeness of you being like a sister i never had. and fact is, the bond became tighter when u came back this time round(before that night mind you). if u wanna severe ties or whatever, at least tell me in the face why. instead of whatever you're doing. you know i'm intelligent and understanding enough not to press on but the least u could do is some form of closure. but if this is how you want things to go.. so be it.. it's painful enough already as it is now. losing GFs is bad enough, but losing friends?

if you need to talk, you know where to find me..