bummer

music note for netscape users: i noticed that ALL the music will start playing simultaneously once its loaded, u'd have to stop them manually and play the latest(or whichever song u prefer)

this sucks. i dunno where to begin. first i found out jacq is attached, dating, etc i dunno. from her friendster profile and all. i dunno where to begin. so much for having so many family problems and telling me she wont be anymore attached or in anymore relationship. i feel somewhat shortchanged.

was planning to go watch avp in the evening on thurs. but when i woke up in the morning, i got msg from her where she borrowed watever cash i had left from my account to pay for some scope thingy at the hospital. stomach ulcers again. bah, i cant be bothered la, if she's not gonna help herself, i'm wasting my breath and energy having care and concern for her anymore. and to top it off, my ex collegue joe, whom i owe some cash needed it returned on the same day. geez man, i feel so bad, i've owed him for MONTHS already. and the onli time i could have returned, my account gets hijacked again.

lesson1. NEVER ever lend your atm to anyone anymore, even if its your bf/gf, and if u do, get it back asap once everything's over. u wont noe wat might happen. ur not liable for any assistance or effort towards the other after the breakup.

anyway the fucking soccer match was postphoned due to bad weather. and i was SO fuckin geared up, physically and mentally, all hyped, hoping to numb myself in a positive way, but no. no game. fuck. the new street soccer shoes fit me like tight, damn comfy as well!

ah well, decided to go meet a friendster.com fren at tiong bahru plaza. luckily jacq managed to put $10 in for me to even top up ezlink... anyway i had no money for lunch and my collegue, kathleen was nice enuf to treat me. and for dinner, went to register my ezlink at mac to get some free points so i can use it to buy burger. had a nice long chat with the friendster fren. her name's leeza, half indian half pakistani girl(i noe i noe i noe! i dunno wats with me and the recent intake of mixed girls, dun ask, i have nfi) shared some songs. apparently she listens to hip hop onli, but i'm slowly converting her to metal ballard fan MUAHHAAH lol.

*sigh* work again tmr, might be meeting thuraiya tmr evening, but thats to be confirmed. man i need my money... i hope jacq delivers wat she promised on monday... dammit man... money to return, bills to pay, insurance too! *pulls hair*

folks, pls do NOT ever jump into relationships ever. i'm a perfect eg of the outcome.

oh yeah time to change the music, apparently the current one's killing sherman, haha
hmm, wat should i share with u ppl... *thinks*
i guess a nice sad happy-sounding love song could do after all the past few heavy stuffs..
i present Put Your Arms Around Me by All Star United...

All Star United - Put Your Arms Around Me

I heard it from a friend

Who heard it from another

She said she liked the way

I smiled at You in Monterey

I have more highs than lows

And we could add them up

But we'd be running out of fingers and toes

Oh well, on good days

That's usually the way it goes

But tonight I'm so lonely

Just put you arms around me

And tell me that you love me so much

I'm tired of seeking slowly

Lately I've been crazy

Maybe I'm just getting out of touch

Now I'm holding on

'Till the night is gone

I'm an average guy

But people like to have their heroes

I'm seldom nervous

Dry or shy

And usually it always shows

Until this feeling goes away

Until I get the needed dose

Until You put Your arms around

And hold me close

SOCCER SHOES YEAH

YES finally got my soccer shoes! some lotto one. and according to sherman, the best and most expensive one. got it from his uncle's shop at queensway shopping centre. its usual price was $79.90 but thru his uncle i got it at bout $55 odd onli. and went to get a adidas headband and an ankle guard.

the headband's to prevent sweat from coming into my eyes, which it usually does when i sweat badly, and it'll sting my eyes, annoying.
ankle guard's for my right ankle, which i sprained once couple of years back, just to make sure if i were ever to be too gung-ho for the upcoming soccer tourney, i wont screw anything up, lol.

and before going down to queensway, weiming came over to my place to test out his new hdd & external hdd casing which runs on USB2.0 which is having problems transfering big files onto it.

fortunately i do have an extra usb2.0 expansion card, and installing it was a breeze. and transfering files to and fro was no probs
so i guess his usb1.1 port is having compatibility issues or coz his OS is win98.

ah well. hope to watch avp tmr or something.

thanks to sherm for the discounts

ARGH!

ARGH! crapz0rs. i think i've overspent already. sherman's right, being single with a lot of money is NOT GOOD. after splurging 80odd bucks at hmv on monday(read prev post) like i said, supposed to go mustafa on tues. but again i didnt go. why? because after handing in my timesheets i remembered funan centre was just around the corner. wat else? decided to go there and window shop.

pfft, window shop indeed. ended up getting a new cheap multi-code dvd player from enzer, which costed onli $89, cool huh? haha. and buying hellboy dvd for my brother coz the other time we watched it in the cinema, we saw it from the front seat, which sucked. and so home i go, install the new dvd player and watch hellboy with my brother. the german baddie, Kroenen, is so cool. the dude in black outfit with 2 blades. very interesting moves as well. its like some advanced form of Tonfa-jutsu(think T-Batons) but instead of wood, we have metal blades instead. amazing. not onli does it wield it with style, there was a point of time where he deflects bullets back to the ppl who shot it, ala, jedi in starwars... *sigh*

anyway was quite a tiring day and all, went online. something was wrong with my java applet programs, not allowing me to login into my dbs net banking. after removing all the prev java versions, i had to reboot my pc. and even then i was talking to a fren called, leeza, on msn. poor girl. i promised her i'll be back from i reboot my pc. while rebootin i decided to lie on my bed. next thing i noe my mum's wakin me up for morning prayers. infact i forgot wth happened. until mum asked how come i sleeping with the lights and specs on. then it hit me, i fell asleep! lol. sorry leeza!

anyway cant wait to meet up with sherman... *rubs hands*
SOCCER BOOTS HERE I COME BWAHAHAHAHAH

i wonder if anyone can go play xbox with me this time around =

MONEY!!!!!!!

YES!! money. *throws confetti around*
didnt go mustafa as planned. but went to hmv and buy the cds i've been meaning to get for eons! of coz at the same time couple of vcds, couldnt resist, lol.

Dream Theater: Live at Marquee
Blind Guardian: A Night At The Opera
Natural City(Korean)
Warriors of Heaven and Earth(Chinese)

reason why i bought the dream theater one? it has the kick ass track Bombay Vindaloo!!!!!!! a song an old fren, whom i've lost contact with long ago, sent me.... one of the best guitar solos ever! live or not. with a distinct arabian/middle eastern influence... my god... amazing.... i'll go load the song to play here next time, or now even.

the blind guardian one? well basically coz its metal, and not just any ordinary metal, its Epic Metal, meaning their genre dabs into fantasy and times of forgotten era... infact some earlier album has been inspired by the original LOTR book. and another album was about another of JR Tolkien's book, The Simirillions(however u spell that damn book). they have influences from celtic and opera'ish tunes and vocals. me and my olden time shit, haha

natural city? cool korean sci-fi movie. a tad too gloomy for my usual taste, cept the guys in armour and their guns were too cool to pass. not to mention the martial arts inside. *nosebleed*

warriors of heaven and earth? another martial art flick, chinese movie with a jap swordsman inside, beautiful. story kinda a bit screw loose, but hell i'm just into the action YEAH!

blew like 80bucks odd man, the most i've spent at HMV man! haha.

didnt want to spend anymore so thought of just getting some munchies at old chang kee, but apparently the ones i want are sold out, since it was closing already. bleh. so went to cineleisure and had an enourmous meal fit for a king at Subway's. foot long hearty italian with sweet onion teriyaki chicken filling... all veges thrown in cept for onions and chilli..... oh la la....

finally, some pampering of my own, cant remember when the fuck i ever could do such things man! though i was a bit lonely hangin around orchard and eating at subways.... *sigh* ah well.

cant wait for my off day... and to get my street soccer shoes! cant wait for this friday's match as well! hope i can pull off my 'manuver at tanaab'(a move i pull off once in a blue moon, seen by theepan and sherman once long ago...) again haha. that'll be a sight... infact i've pulled it once or twice during my soccer sessions with my collegues at work before. I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN! OPPONENTS BEWARE! LANDO IS IN THE HOUSE AND HE'S GONNA PULL OFF ANOTHER MANUVER AT TANAAB MUAHAHAHAAHHAAH

note: theepan, sherman, pls describe to the public how the thing goes on my tagboard, lol.

anyway tmr after work gonna have to remember to hand in timesheets and buy toiletries from mustafa! gah. need to shave. i'm at a loss as to wat design to try on my facial hair. its like if i cleanly shave, i'll look too young, hell damn bouncers had to check my nric when i went to devil's bar that other time -_____-' how insulting. but if i leave everything on, i'll look like a terrorist lol. i guess i'll just stick to the 'goatie under chin' style for now...

and now, i present to u, Bombay Vindaloo performed live at Marquee in London, by Dream Theater.

(as usual the older songs are playable upon manual intervention, DT's song will play by default. and i hope i dun run into any copyrights issue LOL)

Depression sets back in

saturday:
well did a swap of shift with a collegue so i could go get my pay cheque. yay! MONEY finally. man, no more instant noodles for me, fuck i'm so sick of it, giving me stomach problems and all, YUCK. i dun think i'm gonna touch that anymore anytime soon haha. anyway i made an effort to wake up early so i can get to my job agency 11pm on the dot, throw the cheque into bank and rush back to work. it was smooth sailing i tell u. until 2 bus away from my drop off. there was some stupid accident and there was actually a JAM on the AYE. i could have reached work at bout 11.40-11.45am, instead got there nearly 12noon. luckily onli the most lenient teamleader was around, and noticed i was around much later *phew*

work was fine as usual, infact it was VERY GOOD. so many general enquiries and just the proviosning of promotions and contracts. whoopee! more of those, means less technical problems to handle. thank god. of coz i had a gut feeling that somemore something's bound to go wrong soon. nite came, was supposed to meet up with this half arab girl, called thuraiya whom i met in frenster.com eons ago, in town, maybe even going to HRC, but apparently she's too tired since she went sentosa. ok fine, off i go to clinton's outing at Walas Walas(however u spell that bar) in holland v. great place, but a tad too packed for my taste. music was good, though it could have been better, but no complaints nontheless. didnt drink much, at least i dun think so, coz didnt puke or anything, which is a gd sign, lol. had a Brown Cow cocktail, chocolate milk with bailey's i think, tasted awesome, BAILEYS ROCK. then had a b-52 shooter, love those shooters, makes u all warm and fuzzy inside *sigh* then next was a tequila. was ok i guess, just needed another cheap drink, lol. oh yeah met clinton's infamous fren, songhui, bugger was funny man. and some of their frens, indrani and zhen. later on celia and her fren came by. anyway songhui and zhen went to open a chiva regal i think. they went on some drinking competition.

now and then they'll pour a shot here and a shot there for me. was ok i guess. later on songhui became rather quiet, lol. forehead sweatin and all. i knew the look, he was gonna puke, but he was trying not to. zhen? she was crying and all, something about her ex. after 30mins odd of holdin on, songhui finally threw up, luckily it wasnt anything massive, but controlled puking (cant really describe, he must be really skillful LOL) then told us he wanted to go home. me and clint helped him walk to the road to grab a cab, and went back to bar. by then i was a bit tipsy/woozy, but otherwise able to think and talk, just the balance's fucked. zhen was still crying a bit here and there. finished the damn bottle by giving out the last few shots to us. of coz in her haste she accidently knocked one of the shots over and damn thing spilled on my pants. if i was sober i'd be pissed, luckily i was high to not bother much lol. anyway hoping to catch the last bus, 7, home, i went off roughly 12.40am odd. couldnt really remember wat the last bus was, but the last bus from the busstop behind borders was either 12.15am or 12.35am, either way it should take a while before reachin holland v. unfortunately i left my wallet behind, had to go back and take it first. by then i was sitting at the busstop for nearly 20mins when i gave up and took a cab back at bout 12.52am odd.

after the shower, KOed immediately man.... awesome... never slept so well man...

sunday:
morning woke up so refreshed, though i had just below 6hrs of sleep, still felt super. work was normal, cept, as the day went on, the calls just got a lot more weirder, harder and fucked up. the harder the calls, the more i'm beginning to doubt my technical ability to troubleshoot. couldnt wait to fuckin get off work... somemore had that double yellow line gig to attend. was hoping thuraiya was free, unfortunately no, which means i would have to go alone -_-'. ok fine. the last straw was during the last hr before knock off. this ang moh called in, asked how to configure her cellphone to connect to her laptop which in turn is connected to maxonline. *blink blink* *vision starts to get foggy*
asked me for her username and password which the cellphone was asking for, and i had to keep telling her that maxonline doesnt have such a thing, whenever the cable modem is turned on, means ur connected already, no authentication required. and if the cellphone needs to connect to her sony laptop, then she'd have to refer to sony or the cellphone vendor, we at starhub do NOT support 3rd party products and software, or will give assistance in configuring PDAs and the such. *pulls hair* after that i felt like breaking every single pen in sight, including mine. i was SO fucking close to losing it, like going on a mad rampage, beat ppl up or something. seriously. luckily common sense won me over, and didnt break any pens, but felt fucking fucked up. went to find ways to avoid calls. and somehow there's still something wrong with the internal call transfer system. coz starhub just upgraded the phone system, but i'm having problems transfering calls to other depts. infact, there was this guy, my last call, who wanted to sign up for the maxonline mid year promo. fine, so i transfer to sales. was on the call wait for a LONG time. 10mins+ odd. then suddenly the softphone(the phone software on pc) died. the call waiting music died, and i was unable to hang up call. BLAH. ok fine, so i restarted the softphone and tried to call sales directly to call back sub. after nearly 20mins(purposely) still no answer, by then i could knock off already. so while waitin i just put my head on the desk and tried to relax...

anyway after that just rushed off to the gig, and happened to drop in my fren's band's performance, after 2 songs i was told. noticed that jacq brought a fren along, someone i never saw before, an INDIAN guy. hmph. and likt 3/4 of the thing, she had to go off coz she wasnt feeling well. makes me wonder, but ah fuck it. the gig was nice, but the last band, My Squared Circle is so fucking Mat. i mean there were all different races attending the gig, and those mofos spoke in malay. wtf? i mean music wise ok fine, but otherwise it was disgusting how they were so fucking mat and all. and went back home and here i am updating my blog. heh.

tmr's supposed to be off, but a collegue wanted to swap with me to a off day on wed. reason? been working 4days straight and wants a long break. *thinks* well since i've already had mine from wed to friday, and been working for 2 days which is sat and sun, why not? anyway means i'll have a long off day, wed to thurs, and am owed a favour somemore, haha. ah well...
cant wait to go get my toiletries at mustafa tmr after work... *rubs hands* hope i will have much left after someone plans to borrow cash yet, once, again... infact i had hoped she wouldnt already. coz i'm sick and tired of helping someone who doesnt appreciate me(i've not forgotten, i still remember my last post) i wish her frens would care enuf not onli to provide emotional and mental support, but including financial. i feet somewhat used. even if its just borrowing, the act of lending out alone is priceless... doesnt matter that the money is returned now or later but the fact that its being lent out to help in times of crisis.

bah anyway, to add onto the gloomy atmosphere of the blog, i've added another 1337 music. supposed to be a death metal band, but the guits and drums are rather... mild imo.
as in not like mild mild like rock. but mild for a metal song. doesnt come with the usually double pedal as well. rock'ish drums, 1337 piano, acoustic and electric guits, and moody melody and UBER AWESOME SOLO OMG. the onli complaint is the style its sung. the first part was fine, but halfway thru it turns into the stereotypical screeching voice. think cradle of filth/slipknot. *shudders* urgh. but alas the way the lyrics was written, it wont fit it a normal non-screeching voice. *sigh* anyway, i present to u River Flows Frozen by Eternal Tears Of Sorrow and the song's lyrics...

The River Flows Frozen
[Music: Kokko & Puolakanaho]
[Lyrics: Vetelainen & Kokko & Puolakanaho]

Like frozen leaves
We are falling
On to the soil so barren and cold

The rays of sun
No more warming
Our hearts now so cold

Through this field
Of the withered flowers
We go still one more time

The hidden beauty
Forever gone
The river's frozen once again

So came this time
When moonlight blackened my heart:
I can't stand this pain

The chain is broken
It's tearing open my scars:
I want to feel the flame...again

The shine behind
The frozen stream
Reminds me of your eyes

The spark of hope
Still in my heart
Shall dreams become true under the ice?

[Chorus]

ps: the prev song can still be heard, put up a seperate player just in case. the above song will run automatically, so if want to hear the old one, just stop the new and play the prev one. ^^