line back up. suicidal thoughts. escorting services for sale

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my line's back up. but my gprs isnt working. checked with my mates in starhub mobile side and they've confirmed that the gprs is activated when line was resumed. might be handset problem. fuck.

well i'm broke again after my pay. this sucks. $0.70 in pocket, $1+ in ezlink and $1+ in bank account. i was supposed to get money, always promised money. now, i dun even have money to return some of my frens, promised made. fuck. ARGH. i prolly nearly lost my job coz i've been late far too many times. was late again this morning. woke up 10mins before i was supposed to report at work. hoping to grab a cab down, i again find nothing in my account. so much for promised money last nite.

so now i am at work. wanting to cry, but i cant. why? coz i dun want my collegues to think i'm some kinda pussy. explaining to them would take too long. they'll prolly give negative critiscm instead of being prositively helpful. at this rate i'll really go crazy too. nah, i wont go imh. i'll just throw myself off the nearest high rise building. fuck wat i'll get in the afterlive. living thru crap everyday is bs. just when life was getting better, this just has to happen. do u really want me to die or disappear jacq? are u really trying to help me? or just making up stories and stalling for time to find money? or has your mental disorder gotten the best of u and made u once again a chronic liar and making up things to make me feel better while u leech off me.

u noe how broke i am, u noe how desperate i am for the money the fucking lawyer has yet to give me. yet u leave me broke. every pay day. i'm sick of this. i'm going mad. i'm seriously thinking of standing on some roof, get the media's attention so u and the fucking laywer will take me seriously and give me my money. fuck i must be stupid to have believe u w/o any hardcopy of the lawsuit and etc. argh. i do not deserve this. my karma is supposed to be over. ur supposed to be out of my life. pls give me back my money and leave me alone..

and due to my lack of funds for self preservation, i will now.. sell myself. not for sexual activities mind u. it seemed like a hassle to find a social escort agency and get a job there to moonlight or something. so for a low fee.. i will accompany anyone(yes even gays) for company, events, functions, etc(NOTE: this is for social non-sexual activities onli). feel free to leave comments, or email me @ m.faiz@swirvemail.com for more information..

i have set up a paypal button as well.. for those kind netizens out there reading this.. any donation would be appreciated..(seriously this aint no april fool's joke)

well until i can get my gprs back up, no new photos of my cat will be updated..
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