Finally

finally some good news all week. my kamelot album has finally arrived. brother just called me to tell me about it. expect more songs to be put up. even a higher quality vers of the current song(not like it matters much since its heavily compressed at 32bit mono wma, lol)

Pwned!!!111!1

sigh

i've gone and done it again. brought rachel home last nite. but something happened. my mum woke up.
thank goodness we were done with the (mis)deed when my mum woke up.
long story short, i was lectured. luckily enuf she didn scold me loud enuf to wake my dad up.
and i thought everything was gonna be ok.

dad just called, wants me to come back home coz mum just told him wat happened.
sigh. the thing i fear the most has happened. my dad noes.

well. this would mean i'm gonna die when i get home from work tonight. i feel like crying right now. if onli i had bothered to hide her clothes and stuff in my room, then this wouldnt happened. we happened to be in the toilet cleaning up when my mum woke up. everything was fine till i noticed my mum went into my room and turned on the lights and find rachel's stuff all around.

fuck.

i'm so scared. i cant focus at work anymore. i dun have the mood to do anything right now. i just wanna disappear. i feel like going to the roof of my work building and hang at the edge during my break. but then again i dun think it would be that easily accessible.

argh
someone help me. why didnt i stick to sop(standard operating procedure). why?
why couldnt my mum just sleep. WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO TELL MY DAD!?
he's gonna murder me tonight.

i cant take this shit anymore. my life's ruined.

i wanna go away... disappear..

KAMELOT YEAH!

i bet u guys cant wait some songs from the new album. yes its not here yet.

but

an online fren had actually downloaded the ripped mp3s from the album. i'm ashamed to say this but i actually couldnt wait any further(hei i paid for it already ok?) and got him to send me the whole thing. the onli thing missing from the set were the bonus tracks. its ok, at least something to look forward to when my cd arrives.

by far this has one of the nicest rythm, energy and power inside, as most of the others are like hard ballards(if there was ever such a type, lol)
unfortunately the lyrics are not on their website and i'll prolly have to wait till my cd arrives before i append the lyrics here.

so without further delay, i present

When The Lights Go Down by Kamelot.

Denied my revenge..

well. how should i put it.

i dun even noe where to begin. all i can say is, i hate myself for the decisions and plans i made yesterday. why? since i dunno where to start so i'll just fucking list them in point form

• rachel msgs me in the afternoon telling me she doesnt want to meet up(which was fine with me at first)
• on the spur of the moment, decided to last minute ask out an old fren, whom both our mutual fren happens to be a collegue at work. so since all 3 of us are finishing work at the same time(9pm) why not, i had to submit my timesheets at my job agency, so we planned to have dinner after that
• apparently rachel did went out to meet her fren, and then another not-so-close fren joined them.
• long story cut short, first rachel's fren had to go off, leaving her with the 2nd fren, a guy(the first was a girl) which was WAY too touchy.
• somehow they ended up hanging out below her block, and the mofo tried to be funny, demanding hugs from her, and all, all of which rachel did not consent to or want, even telling him that she's already attached and all.
• mofo hugs her anyway, tries to force himself on her, carrying her(yes tall mofo, at least as strong as me) onto his lap, groping her breast and tried to get between her legs, all this in the void deck of her block in public.(wtf?)
• of coz after that she forced herself off him and went home

the things i regretted doing, last minute plan with fren(if i knew such a thing were gonna happen, i'd insist on meeting rachel anyway.

i demanded her to get him to meet up tonight so i can confront him and all(and hope he retaliates so i can punch him legally) but she doesnt want that to happen. why?

1. she's afraid he'll start stalking her out of spite
2. that there's a possibility that i'll lose to him
3. she just wants to forget the whole incident coz she's never gonna see the mofo again

wtf? me? lose in a fight? pfft. but she is right. there's always that possibility. a slip, a freak punch to a wrong area of the body, anything.

sigh. its like denying the samurai his honour! he cant even hara kiri! ARGH it was so frustrating. i wished she would have just call me so i could just cab down and protect her or something. thats 2 dents in my record. 2 FUCKING DENTS(this the first with rachel, i'm not obliged to discuss the other, who's of no concern to me anymore)

why cant i be protective and useful. she says that when i'm around no one would try to be funny and all. but where's the kick in that!? i wanna be useful WHEN i'm around. when such things happen, so i can come in with my stallion and shining armour and decap the mofo.

almost couldnt sleep at nite, it was 4.45am by the time i finished talking to her on the phone and my last cig before i sleep. but i just couldnt fucking sleep. i keep thinking. even cried a bit. why cant i be more useful to my loved ones? i noe i'm no superhero, but this just isnt fair! i bet that fucking mofo is mocking and laughing at me too. "HAHAHAHA I PWNZ J00! I GROPED YOUR GF'S BREAST AND THERE'S NOTHING U CAN FUCKING DO TO ME BWAHAHHA"

ARGH THE MOCKERY IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.

anyway a few mins of tossing and turning, my cat jumped on my bed and start meowing. she must be wondering why i'm feeling this way. she lay beside me and she let me stroke her. pets are indeed theraputic.. after i was at peace once again, did she leave me and my bed and i could sleep finally..

anyway that mofo's nick on msn is retroboy77. those who have this fucking moron on your list, pls do forward me his details so i can kill him. lurks in #power98,galaxynet, unsure of his irc nick tho. such scum are not allowed to live freely and be a menace to society.(i might be horny and perverse at times, but i still have morals and ethics, i do not just fuck around with anyone and everyone, and anyone who thinks they can when the other party doesnt consent deserves to die) and retroboy77 if ur reading this, your head's on my wanted list. ur so fux0red.

confirmed meeting rachel tonight. i hope he appears since he stays around bt panjang area. i dare u to attempt to stalk her. i'll make sure u do not wake up tmr morning.. do not be surprised to see interesting frontpage on tmr's newpaper.. no one takes advantage of my loved one and gets away with it...

ps: to top it all, i've yet to receive my fucking kamelot album. it should have arrived latest yesterday. if its still not in by the time i get back home tonight.. i'm gonna give amazon.co.uk hell..

pps: to those who knows how to pick locks and such, pls do pm me, i've always wanted to learn the tricks of the trade, picking locks and such.

Feature Film Casting Call!

posting this on behalf of a gd friend of mine..



"MediaCorp Raintree Pictures in collaboration with Ochre Pictures are currently working on a local film project. This film will be shown in cinemas in the near future (you guys might have guessed it due to Raintree's reputation)

The film will feature a stellar cast list that includes Wong Li Lin, Nadya Hutagalung, Vernetta Lopez, Paula Malai (Current Channel V VJ) and Ananda Everingham (the Thai horror flick - Shutter male lead)

I'm currently looking for:

1) An actress (AGED 11-20) to play the role of LI-ANN (little Wong Li-lin)

2) An actress (AGED 11-20) to play the role of KIM (little Paula Malai)

If you are interested in
giving this once in a lifetime opportunity a shot or if you know anyone who might be, please do not hesitate to give me a call. Alternatively, you can email me should you have any enquiries at valentino@ochrepictures.com.

Do include a recent picture of yourself / the person you are recommending and your contact number. I also seek everyone's help in spreading this message around. And don't be afraid to contact me as a chance like this will never come by too often!THANKS!

Valentino Lacson
Casting Assistant
Ochre Pictures / Artiste E. Casting Agency
HP 96974964
valentino@ochrepictures.com"

CAT PHOTOS BELOW!

finally, the gprs on my hp is working again. maybe there was indeed something wrong with the line, coz starhub recently helped change my service plan. anyway the photos are below for u neko fans to enjoy.

kamelot album still on in, so i guess it'll be by monday i guess =\

finally some updated photos of my cat hehe. this is when i caught her sleeping late at nite. its on top of one of my dining table chairs. she sleeps everywhere i tell u haha 

my cat has a habit of demanding attention when we're reading the paper. my bro got annoyed and decided to do something cute with her, haha