bummer

music note for netscape users: i noticed that ALL the music will start playing simultaneously once its loaded, u'd have to stop them manually and play the latest(or whichever song u prefer)

this sucks. i dunno where to begin. first i found out jacq is attached, dating, etc i dunno. from her friendster profile and all. i dunno where to begin. so much for having so many family problems and telling me she wont be anymore attached or in anymore relationship. i feel somewhat shortchanged.

was planning to go watch avp in the evening on thurs. but when i woke up in the morning, i got msg from her where she borrowed watever cash i had left from my account to pay for some scope thingy at the hospital. stomach ulcers again. bah, i cant be bothered la, if she's not gonna help herself, i'm wasting my breath and energy having care and concern for her anymore. and to top it off, my ex collegue joe, whom i owe some cash needed it returned on the same day. geez man, i feel so bad, i've owed him for MONTHS already. and the onli time i could have returned, my account gets hijacked again.

lesson1. NEVER ever lend your atm to anyone anymore, even if its your bf/gf, and if u do, get it back asap once everything's over. u wont noe wat might happen. ur not liable for any assistance or effort towards the other after the breakup.

anyway the fucking soccer match was postphoned due to bad weather. and i was SO fuckin geared up, physically and mentally, all hyped, hoping to numb myself in a positive way, but no. no game. fuck. the new street soccer shoes fit me like tight, damn comfy as well!

ah well, decided to go meet a friendster.com fren at tiong bahru plaza. luckily jacq managed to put $10 in for me to even top up ezlink... anyway i had no money for lunch and my collegue, kathleen was nice enuf to treat me. and for dinner, went to register my ezlink at mac to get some free points so i can use it to buy burger. had a nice long chat with the friendster fren. her name's leeza, half indian half pakistani girl(i noe i noe i noe! i dunno wats with me and the recent intake of mixed girls, dun ask, i have nfi) shared some songs. apparently she listens to hip hop onli, but i'm slowly converting her to metal ballard fan MUAHHAAH lol.

*sigh* work again tmr, might be meeting thuraiya tmr evening, but thats to be confirmed. man i need my money... i hope jacq delivers wat she promised on monday... dammit man... money to return, bills to pay, insurance too! *pulls hair*

folks, pls do NOT ever jump into relationships ever. i'm a perfect eg of the outcome.

oh yeah time to change the music, apparently the current one's killing sherman, haha
hmm, wat should i share with u ppl... *thinks*
i guess a nice sad happy-sounding love song could do after all the past few heavy stuffs..
i present Put Your Arms Around Me by All Star United...

All Star United - Put Your Arms Around Me

I heard it from a friend

Who heard it from another

She said she liked the way

I smiled at You in Monterey

I have more highs than lows

And we could add them up

But we'd be running out of fingers and toes

Oh well, on good days

That's usually the way it goes

But tonight I'm so lonely

Just put you arms around me

And tell me that you love me so much

I'm tired of seeking slowly

Lately I've been crazy

Maybe I'm just getting out of touch

Now I'm holding on

'Till the night is gone

I'm an average guy

But people like to have their heroes

I'm seldom nervous

Dry or shy

And usually it always shows

Until this feeling goes away

Until I get the needed dose

Until You put Your arms around

And hold me close