bummer part 2
ok this sucks, i'm actually sick, lol. something rare, haha. went to the doc and was diagnosed with stomach flu. even gave me 2 days mc, lol.
bad day at work yesterday, the damn gastric started after lunch. wasnt hungry, so i just went for my usual diet of biscuits. those round sweet marie claire one or something. soon, i was beginning to feel fucked up. slight diaherra, and constant puking. its like, every 15mins or after every call(whichever faster) i'd have to run to the toilet lol. couldnt concentrate anymore had to pass some of the harder cases to a collegue to assist in troubleshooting.
felt fucked up when i got home, damn bloated. infact, i couldnt really sleep the whole nite, kept tossing and turning, and couldnt sleep sideways, coz it hurt my tummy. 4.30am+ i was wide awake, i have nfi how come, coz i knew i was tired and all. apparently by morning the bloatedness was still around, and had to puke to make it better. called in sick this morning. i'm still contemplating on going to work tmr, oh well.
anyway in answer to, presumebly, lin's response, she's right that i did check on her email and frenster. and of coz its wrong. i'm sorting that out, infact, there's no chance for me to do anything of that sort anymore anyway. though i dunno wat u mean when u said this "she claims her friend put the money in her account. she checks and the money is gone, she's left with what she initially had?" if u think i took it away, then u have to understand that i do not have her atm card, and she doesnt have net banking to my own account. just a pre-emptive statement, just incase, sorry if it meant something else.
and to my frens, sherm and clint, i hope u didnt get the wrong idea about the shortchanged part, nothing to do with the money, just the relationship thingy. infact apart from wat i've said, u have to remember i gave her the authorization to borrow money from me, just make sure she asks first, was partly annoyed in the last post due to her telling me onli AFTER she took the money. anyway all's fine, no worries.
and i do agree, on another level, "you rant and rave so much about others judging another just by reading their blogs, not truly taking the opportunity to get to know the person before drawing to such conclusions." i'm just taking a neutral stand on this statement. they have had their own experiences, hence drawn to the same conclusion and remarks. but at the same time i do feel that they do not noe jacq as much i do personally, hence they dun have the right to exactly bring her down in that manner.
"but do they know that you log into her email account? that you read her email? that you log into her friendster account as well?"
well logging into her email at least.
"where is the maturity and depth that you claimed to have achieved?"
i'm wondering at the same thing myself. i'm still on the journey of self discovery. i AM trying to improve myself now and all. i might have sounded childish, but i am working on it.
"because you guys should have come out of it changed. for the better. to realise mistakes, to make amends and start anew."
trust me, i'm trying my best, really am.
*wipes sweat off forehead* hokay.... i think the medicine's startin to work on me. feeling a lot better and sweating it out at the same time. i wonder if i should get something to munch on, getting a phobia for eating now, coz i'll prolly just end up puking it all out again...
as much as i'm hungry, everytime i look at food i will feel like puking and have no appetite.
anyway ppl, conclusion? sherm and co, i'd appreciate if just keep your anger and frustration to yourself or something. i mean even i'm not THAT angry, so i dun see a reason why this should be the case. i DO appreciate you guys' support and concern... but i'll be fine. infact i AM back on my feet, just learning to walk once again thats all. so ppl, no worries k?
to make everyone's life easier i shall start being more positive and post happier songs ^^
*still contemplating eating a muesli bar, bites lips*
nah, i think i'll just go retreat to the warmth of my bed for now....
bad day at work yesterday, the damn gastric started after lunch. wasnt hungry, so i just went for my usual diet of biscuits. those round sweet marie claire one or something. soon, i was beginning to feel fucked up. slight diaherra, and constant puking. its like, every 15mins or after every call(whichever faster) i'd have to run to the toilet lol. couldnt concentrate anymore had to pass some of the harder cases to a collegue to assist in troubleshooting.
felt fucked up when i got home, damn bloated. infact, i couldnt really sleep the whole nite, kept tossing and turning, and couldnt sleep sideways, coz it hurt my tummy. 4.30am+ i was wide awake, i have nfi how come, coz i knew i was tired and all. apparently by morning the bloatedness was still around, and had to puke to make it better. called in sick this morning. i'm still contemplating on going to work tmr, oh well.
anyway in answer to, presumebly, lin's response, she's right that i did check on her email and frenster. and of coz its wrong. i'm sorting that out, infact, there's no chance for me to do anything of that sort anymore anyway. though i dunno wat u mean when u said this "she claims her friend put the money in her account. she checks and the money is gone, she's left with what she initially had?" if u think i took it away, then u have to understand that i do not have her atm card, and she doesnt have net banking to my own account. just a pre-emptive statement, just incase, sorry if it meant something else.
and to my frens, sherm and clint, i hope u didnt get the wrong idea about the shortchanged part, nothing to do with the money, just the relationship thingy. infact apart from wat i've said, u have to remember i gave her the authorization to borrow money from me, just make sure she asks first, was partly annoyed in the last post due to her telling me onli AFTER she took the money. anyway all's fine, no worries.
and i do agree, on another level, "you rant and rave so much about others judging another just by reading their blogs, not truly taking the opportunity to get to know the person before drawing to such conclusions." i'm just taking a neutral stand on this statement. they have had their own experiences, hence drawn to the same conclusion and remarks. but at the same time i do feel that they do not noe jacq as much i do personally, hence they dun have the right to exactly bring her down in that manner.
"but do they know that you log into her email account? that you read her email? that you log into her friendster account as well?"
well logging into her email at least.
"where is the maturity and depth that you claimed to have achieved?"
i'm wondering at the same thing myself. i'm still on the journey of self discovery. i AM trying to improve myself now and all. i might have sounded childish, but i am working on it.
"because you guys should have come out of it changed. for the better. to realise mistakes, to make amends and start anew."
trust me, i'm trying my best, really am.
*wipes sweat off forehead* hokay.... i think the medicine's startin to work on me. feeling a lot better and sweating it out at the same time. i wonder if i should get something to munch on, getting a phobia for eating now, coz i'll prolly just end up puking it all out again...
as much as i'm hungry, everytime i look at food i will feel like puking and have no appetite.
anyway ppl, conclusion? sherm and co, i'd appreciate if just keep your anger and frustration to yourself or something. i mean even i'm not THAT angry, so i dun see a reason why this should be the case. i DO appreciate you guys' support and concern... but i'll be fine. infact i AM back on my feet, just learning to walk once again thats all. so ppl, no worries k?
to make everyone's life easier i shall start being more positive and post happier songs ^^
*still contemplating eating a muesli bar, bites lips*
nah, i think i'll just go retreat to the warmth of my bed for now....
posted by Fux0r3d at 8/22/2004 12:06:00 pm
12 Comments:
Faiz,
i know u and jac to an extend to tell you that u both were not meant to be. just becuz she could read u like an open book, did not make her the one. when u broke up with Asra and went with jac i knew it wun last. and a number of people in the #sw would agree that something was not right when she first entered the channel.
sometimes it is good to practive chilvary. but not all girls really deserve that sort of treatment. has she one day told u what u did RIGHT? rather than always saying what u did WRONG? a relationship is a 2 way thing. if u both have a breakup, stop being a switch. be decisive and make it clean.
wether it was the right decision to pull the plug, who are we to comment. we are not the ones in the relationship. but the crux of the matter is that u ought to know when enough is enough.
has she accepted u for who u are? or did she overlook ur bad points, hoping that u will change? a good relationship would and will blossom if each accepted the other for their whole package, both good and bad.
what is ur call faiz? do u still have feelings for her? do u still feel u are indepted to her in one way or another? do u feel u owe her something? are u sure it is over for u or are u clinging on to a string of hope that things will change between u both?
i am not a fan for break ups. neither am i a fan for mismatch couples. being in a relationship is more to companionship and sex. it is about acceptance, commitment, responsibility, maturity, time management and not losing who u really are in the whole process of the relationship.
i am a friend. not here to say who is right and wrong. just a word of advice. thats all. i know u for more than 3 years.not as long as clint, theeps and sherm though. to change for the sake of one woman is not worth it. to change for the sake of being a better man is worth it.
BTW if what u think i said is rubbish i apoligise. take care.
thats not rubbish, infact it makes perfect sense.
"when u broke up with Asra and went with jac i knew it wun last." actually, i was bound to break up with asra sooner or later, jacq was just the catalyst.
"sometimes it is good to practive chilvary. but not all girls really deserve that sort of treatment."
well i've learnt that the hard way...
"has she accepted u for who u are? or did she overlook ur bad points, hoping that u will change? a good relationship would and will blossom if each accepted the other for their whole package, both good and bad."
i think that is one of the main reasons why it just didnt work out. infact we just cant accept 100% of each other's lifestyle
"what is ur call faiz? do u still have feelings for her? do u still feel u are indepted to her in one way or another? do u feel u owe her something? are u sure it is over for u or are u clinging on to a string of hope that things will change between u both?"
nope,i just hope she takes care of herself and all, considering the things she's going thru on her side, be it mental or physical.
"being in a relationship is more to companionship and sex. it is about acceptance, commitment, responsibility, maturity, time management and not losing who u really are in the whole process of the relationship."
i guess the flaws in the above mentioned qualities was, acceptance, and losing who i really am in the whole thing...
"i know u for more than 3 years.not as long as clint, theeps and sherm though. to change for the sake of one woman is not worth it. to change for the sake of being a better man is worth it."
i appreciate your advice, regardless of wat anyone else might say. and i am glad u've been a fren even if it might be that obvious. to change for a woman is not worth it, yeah learnt that the hard way as well, changing to be a better man? definately, though like i mentioned before, i'm still on a journey of self discovery, i've still smoothing out the edges...
thank u once again for bothering lin...
By the way, i am not lin. is she the only friend that u can remember? what about the rest of ur starwars friends? do u forget most of them becuz of jac? My name is Agnes in case u forgot. i guess u did. tataz...
nope, of coz not! its just that, its been a very long time u actually posted on my blog, thats why i assumed it was lin instead of anyone else...
would lin say that her best bud and u were not meant to be with each other? is lin the only person that can give advices? sad isn;t it? lin this and lin that? ahahaha.... man. i just remembered something. get better. flu will be gone away.
i'm just beggin everyone to just please stop all this stuff... as i'm not gonna say anything anymore.. to anyone.. do not blame lin. she's just being a friend. she is taking sides. so is your friends faiz.. it's a natural reaction, natural instincts.
i'm dissed by the name callings. and frankly, i would very much like it to stop. i think faiz has told you guys. like it or not, it's between me and him. and i will resolve it with him.
i tell that to my friends as well. and the reason why lin is here posting a really long comment is becos she reacting as how a friend would. just like how you guys reacted.
i've told my friends to stop all this. and to begin with, there wasn't and cussing or bitching around (between my friends and i) abt faiz at all. they know faiz. and they know me. nobody's taking sides.
i know that you guys hate me. period. including some other pple from the channel. i don't blame you guys. and i'm not gonna say anything else.
as mentioned, it's strictly between me and faiz. it would be much appreciated if noone interferes this anymore. (at least i know from my side, my friends would not be interfering @ all).
i apologise again. but here's one thing. there's only this much a person can be gracious about things.
as for the money issue. it's gettin messy. i'll sort it out with him. it's just gets messier if everybody trys to put in their cent's worth of opinion.
i'm over abt him checking my stuff. he has gotten shit from me. and i don't wanna do that anymore.
so please, just stop all this. cos.. he's my only contact point to you pple.. and i'll be a complete bitch towards if this continues. and he knows.
we have this mutual understanding that we'll settle this between ourselves. it'll soon be over.
thanks.
maybe? anything's possible agnes. but thanks, i really do appreciate. how's u and yuchang? we should hang out again sometime, everytime i wanna say hi to u online, i realise onli later that u've actually left, lol
melv: thanks for understanding my physical pain, lol. i feel like i've been punched in the stomach and the pain was there for the whole saturday afternoon and all. bleh, but its a hell lot better now.
see guys? told u i've got it under control this time. so no worries. its all smooth sailing yeah...
life's good....
we are doing good. well catch me if u can when i am online. irc is dead to me. anyways... talk soon. going out? with?
i dunno, u, yuchang, me, anyone else? doesnt really matter. maybe just meet up and play lampost to catch up with old times ya? haha
think i take a raincheck on that one. sorry.
hei no apologises needed lin. and no hard feelings as well. and thanks for everything. frens forever ya? haha
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