Warning, Graphical and Mature updates ahead

sigh. i dun seem to be enjoying sex properly anymore. i dunno wtf is wrong with me. usually i'd sound desperate and all, wanting it every few days, but this time, rachel finished her period, and i've not had it for nearly 2weeks, didnt have the mood for porn or pcc. and when it was time to copulate, i was over and done with within 15mins average. just wat the fuck is going on here? i usually last at least half an hr, to like nearly 2hrs on average. 15mins? fuck, thats like a quickie. ARGH. even then my orgasm was like a fraction of wat it usually is. hell my orgasms lately are a fraction of how orgasmical it usually is. WAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!?

possibilities

• could it be that my body cant take my smoking anymore and am developing symptoms for prostrate cancer?(GASP) but i dun smoke much! and wat i smoke is the 2nd lightest cigs out there!(5mg tar, 0.5mg nicotine)
• had to much sex and body does not need anymore?
• depression. hell i dunno the symptoms, but i do noe it affects the activities one usually enjoys, which may include sex.

ARGH. something's wrong with me. most likely its the damn stress and depression, hell i dun even noe if this constitutes as depression. but i do feel down.. i've begun to become more cynical and skeptical..

i hope this dry spell lets up soon.. i WANT to have and enjoy making love. but this is just plain dumb!

help me.. T_T

in other news, have yet to receive my kamelot album, this coming 8th, it'll be 7mths together with rach(yay!) and have been playing lotsa Guitar Freaks in the arcade recently. prolly coz there's the Sobakasu track they have to jam to(its that rurouni kenshin/samurai x 1st season opening theme by judy and mary)

also got hooked to this song called Break Down by BeForU. its one of those all girl jap band/group(not sure if they play the instruments themselves) its available on DDR, drumfreaks and guitar freaks, but since i dun play the last 2, its really enjoyable to play on guitar freaks. and damn song got stuck in head for days now, even went to find and d/l the song last nite. too bad i could onli find the 'live' vers and not the arcade vers. bleh. i hope i have better luck tonight... =\

and sadly, no one has yet to engaged me to social escorting services.. sigh.