first time vday screw up

hm. i had not anticipated having to screw up vday. not at all. what did i do? the night before i even had a minor tiff with her. apparently she spent 3hrs odd to make chocolates for me. and wat i didnt even do for her? get her flowers. might sound superficial, but i guess these kinda small matters matter to her. i should have known..

usually i'd go all out, but due to budget constrains(my pay cheque was submitted after the collection time on sat, which meant it would onli clear today instead of yesterday)i onli borrowed $100 from a collegue. thinking i might spend too much if i got roses for her, i forgo that and pretty much screwed the mood. stormed home after dinner, reached her place around 8pm. gg huh?

sigh. my thinking was that i'd rather spend the $100 on other practical things than having to blow aruond $50 for a buncha flowers. apparently she argued that, i could have at least gotten a stalk of rose for her, but i didnt even get her anything. well done faiz. the one time u bothered to cut corners and not honour your principles and protocols, something like this happens. we quarrelled to the point where she wanted to break up. i guess last nite's tiff was still fresh. sigh.

being a perfectionist..i thought that if i wanted to do something right..i would need to get her the best buncha flowers, not just a stalk or 2. so i did nothing. oh well..tonight's gonna be my redemption.. i've made arrangements as to have her fav flowers delivered.. i hope i can find the pendant i'm thinking of getting for her and all... sigh..

wish my luck ppl..